April 13, 2007

New CEO announced today, which will mean current heads will roll away. I'm so pleased and plotting my strategy on how to become a true general counsel to the big one.

Always present oneself in a positive light. Practice on everyone - revealing cards to no-one. Be happy, but not inane. Be busy - always be improving yourself. I need more people I can call and chat with about important things - we'll see how it goes with the Shearman guy,\

Kind of like the little one, happy - deliriously so, and very tired at the end of the day - all played out. Maintained focus seems to be a good thing for adults.

I was attempting a detox this week, but the unsatisfactory feelings it brought up were unsustainable. Very hard to do a mind job and detox at the same time. My joint pain is intense, especially carpel tunnel. Indian dude at work told me it was after effects of pregnancy, and I don't doubt him.

April 4, 2007

Olive is more curious now, and wants to get into everything but her toys. She wants to open her drawer and take all the clothes out. She wants to grab all her toilet accessories. This makes me angry, but then I feel so bad because it becomes clear that Olive is not trying to annoy me, she is simply exploring her world, imitating her mama. Because I spoke harsh words to her this morning, she didn't even come running to me when I came home. I felt so bad, all through yoga. I need to tell her so. I will re-bond with her this weekend, a long one due to Easter.

I feel a bit vulnerable at work too. I need to demonstrate my prowess - I tried to practice at lunch with a Shearman partner, of all people. It will make me feel like I have strong ties there, I believe. The man himself was a tad bit boring - I know nothing about him personally even after a 2 hour lunch, which I find strange but oh so Shearman.

Then, am I thinking hard enough of what/how to present things to Rory, Ihor, Millie and Mark? What are the goals for each of these individuals - I should think this through. I need to be prepared for next week to say I did x, y, z.

I have been neglecting my maternal duties of giving Ollie dedicated focused time. What should we do together in the evenings? I believe bathtime should be delayed until my arrival. Then, I just need to be there for her.

Meanwhile I was thinking "Oh, I need some time for myself." There is no time. I simply need to take care of myself - eat right, sleep enough to ensure that I can focus on everything when I am called upon to do so. It's almost midnight - goodnight.

Remind me tomorrow to tell you about maternal coaching, women's seminars at work, women mentors or lack thereof.